Found this post saved as draft. I wonder why I didn't post it out last time.


It feels really good to have someone to back you up.
Day or night, rain or shine, no matter what, without questioning you.
I feel very touched when my friends are willing to spend time cheering me up.
Even when I have doubt on myself and even when I lose faith in myself. Friends, will always be there.


Yes, of course I know.
Friends backstab.
I have heard too many backstabbing stories.



And friends may leave.
Just like any other relationship in the world, friendships need effort and time to maintain.
Friendships are not meant to be forever.


Yet,
Friends will not leave me alone.
Friends are invaluable.


It is time like this that I feel friends are extremely important. I know I tend to leave out my friends a lot when I am in a relationship (used-to-be). Anyway, I start to realize that relationship doesn't last. No matter how hard you try, things are just going to happen how it was meant to be. You can't control. I thought of revenging although I know it is silly. I just think that I don't deserve to be treated like this. Is this a cycle? Someone hurt you, you hurt someone else and then it comes back again.
After such a long time, after I've decided to let go, you decided to do this to me. Are you insane or am I the one? I hope I can hate you, but I can't. This will stay in me forever and one day I will wake up. Am I going to be like the character in the drama I watched recently? Haunted by hate and the heart to revenge for the rest of my life?
I'm really tired and I just want to put this to an end but I wasn't allowed to. I wonder why I don't have the right to solve my own problems.